I needed to read this today

http://jackfit.blogspot.com/2011/04/theres-something-i-need-to-tell-you.html

Did NOT think this was possible

My family came over tonight for Jai's Mission Call opening and there were BROWNIES.
They smelled SOOOOOOOOOOOO good.

And I did not eat ONE.
NOT ONE!!!

Usually in this situation I'll mindlessly eat and eat while I enjoy spending time with the fam, but tonight was different.
I just kept saying to myself, "I want a smaller number more."

I know that I need to be patient, but it's freaking hard.
I want to lose 20 pounds a day at least with the effort that I'm putting in now, but I know that's not possible.

Don't give up Amy.
Don't EVER
EVER
EVER
Give up.

Don't end the summer being the same person that you began .

That's all.

I dunno...

Whelp...keepin on, keepin on...

Batteries ran out on my scale SO had to weigh myself at curves...after drinking water so needless to say, it was more than I think it should have been. BUT, still hangin in there.

I feel like I've made some small victories though.
Every. single.night. I have wanted a BIG, JUICY, BURGER so bad...but I've wanted a SMALLER NUMBER IN THE SCALE MORE!
So that's what I keep telling myself: "I want a smaller number on the scale more, I want a smaller number in the scale more..."
There have been more than a few days that I haven't eaten any meat at all. And that is pure craziness, but good I guess.

I just need to be patient. I'm becoming more and more tempted to jump on the HCG wagon, just so I can get some results FAST.
I also really, really, really want to have 2 days of binging to start me off...oh, Mimi's Cafe sounds so freaking good right now.

We'll see.

Anyway, here are my last couple of days

Monday
Energy Bar -2
Curves lunch-12
Protein shake - 3
Quesadilla-5
Melba toast with laughing cow -2
Energy bar with 1/2 cup almond milk -2

TOTAL = 26

Tuesday
Shake -4
3 eggwhites -2
veggie sausage -2
crispy taco -3
quesadilla -5
1 pizza roll -1
Pirates booty, 1 ounce -3
Energy bay with almond milk -2
Melba toast with laughing cow -2
lettuce and cheese from kids taco's- 4

TOTAL =28
I WANT A LITTLER NUMBER ON THE SCALE TOMORROW!!!

Feelin pretty positive

Totally killed it today!

Shake -4
Quesadilla -5
Lemon Pepper Fish -4
Kettle Chips -2
3 energy bars -6
Melba toast with Laughing cow -2
WW string cheese -1

2 points leftover :)

Ran 1/2 mile, walked 1/2 mile..thank goodness it started raining, because I wanted to be DONE!
Tonight I got corndogs for the girls from Arctic Circle and Double Doubles for the guys from IN-N-OUT and didn't eat ANY OF IT!
VICTORY!!!!

I needed this...

Jack Sh*t

because I seriously want to cry.

Woke up feeling great...with eating as healthy as I possibly could and working out and running around. I thought I at LEAST had to have lost 2 pounds. Did I??
NOPE.


Gained an EFFING OUNCE!!!

Whatev.

Thursday

shake -4
Black bean veggie burger with 1/4 avocado and salad -6
Melba toast with laughing cow-2
" " " " " -2
2 energy bars -4
1 energy bar -2
Black bean veggie burger with 1/4 avocado & Salad again...-6
Total =26
yee haw.

Tuesday and Wednesday

I don't know what else to say about yesterday... Totally did awesome...until GLEE came on and I ate 2 bags of M&M's.

But whatev. They'll just come out of my anytime points. Cool.

Today (Wednesday)

26 points, + 5 Curves 30 minutes, 537 calories

Shake -4
2 quesadillas with kidney beans and babybel gouda (YUMMMMM) -10
Shake -4
Garlic Melba toast and laughing cow cheese- 2
2 cans green beans -0
11 mickey mouse nuggets -11

Total=31. alrighty, I'll take it.